Clarity

A friend of mine has suggested that my signature response is "unclear". The genesis of this is long, and I cannot claim all the credit. Leaving that aside- tonight I began to wonder why i have such fondness for this response.

The reality is, it is a lazy response.

"What do you want to do tonight?"- Unclear
"How do you feel about his decision?"- Oy, Unclear
"This is a tough situation, how do you want to deal?"- Unclear

It's lazy. It is also self-protectionist at times, but it is fundamentally lazy.

But I wonder if in my case, it is actually a crutch, holding up something more. In the flash of a day, we make hundreds of decisions. In my professional day, some of those decisions are relatively important. (Nothing like saving babies, but it is all relative in politics) So I spend my day, sometimes in rapid fire succession, making these decisions. Unclear never gets to be the answer.

But on a personal level, unclear is a space maker. It pushes the question, and the person asking it- away. Theoretically, this space helps to inform clarity, and provides for breathing room.

I guess the question is- why is clarity of mind hard to find? Why is it something that I am constantly seeking? I personally am prone to say its because clarity isn't a real construct- but that is merely the cynic speaking.

But truthfully, if clarity was a real thing, a real space to be achieved, then wouldn't we be able to clear ourselves of prejudice and find it? Wouldn't there always be a right, a best answers? Wouldn't you be able to know what was next?

Unclear, it seems.